So yesterday was a BIG day for us! We closed on our house! Yay, we are so excited and I've already got my new kitchen cabinets, countertops, and floors picked out! Meeting with a design specialist to order the floors today, ordering the cabinets tomorrow, and then once those are installed, the countertops! Hashtag ONIT.
We are so happy to finally have a space that will be our own, have a yard, and a nice quiet cul de sac to play in! We are not actually MOVING until October 17th or 18th, so that way we have time to do the renovations that we want to get done. Well, for the most part.
Anyway, yesterday was overall a good day but it was also a very strange day for me. My due date with baby #2 was yesterday. If you didn't know, I had a miscarriage earlier this year. I shared my story here and if you want to read it, feel free. I felt like I needed to share because so many women go through loss and never talk about it, therefore they don't have support. I wanted to be able to talk openly about my feelings and thoughts so I could seek advice, help, and support from friends who have gone through this.
This whole month is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Hopefully it will help you learn a little about how common miscarriage really is, how most of the time, you did nothing to cause it, and how you can cope and move forward after experiencing it.
So, more than likely, I would still be pregnant today since I was 9 days overdue with Winslow, but now I have an angel looking over us in heaven. I am thankful that I have another precious growing baby in me right now,( I was also 20 weeks pregnant yesterday!) and that has definately helped to lessen the sting of the loss, but it still doesn't make me stop wishing for that little baby in heaven. I would've loved nothing more than to meet him this week, but I know God's plans are greater than mine, and without that loss, I wouldn't have this little baby boy growing in my belly now.
1 in 4 women have miscarriages, so it's not an uncommon thing. It's great that we have this month to just bring attention to the fact that many women do experience it, and it's never easy, no matter the circumstance. It not only affects you physically, but emotionally as well.
So, I hope you'll just remember that if you've been through this, you're not alone. You can seek support and help from me or some of your close friends. That is what got me through.